I am giving you my latest update on my journey and recent growth in writing today vs video. I promised to you and myself that I would document the growth I am experiencing so that you could follow along and potentially benefit from what I’m learning about myself.
I recently deleted my last video posted back on December 12th of last year because I saw the stats on FaceBook, and it was pretty much zero. Instead of feeling bad about that, I stepped into the energy of why that was, and immediately got an answer that I was coming from a place of smallness. I was coming from a victim mentality in my personal life, and it came across to others. You didn’t resonate with that, and I thank you for this gift of feedback. I didn’t want to leave the video up because of the energy it carried. I didn’t want to give that kind of energy to the world with intention. That is exactly the energy I came here to transmute!
We all have the opportunity to take what we’re doing that IS NOT working and transmute it into what CAN work for us. I am very excited to share with you what I’ve been focusing on lately, and the changes I am feeling on the inside. It is the work we do on the INSIDE that finally changes and affects our external world.
First, I want to share what I was trying to communicate in my low vibration video. In that moment I was re-discovering on a more profound level my vasanna or karma that was coming up for me to heal. It was this victim mentality that I’ve experienced most of my life, if not all my conscious life. Not everyone carries this karma to heal, so just insert your karma or personal issue that is coming up for you to heal currently. I was telling myself that I was not safe, and it communicated in video.
Since then, I’ve continued to pay attention to my intuition. I paid attention to all my experiences, the good, the bad and the ugly. They all opened my perception in ways that I had not considered. I was in the process of making big decisions in my life that would alter not only my life, but those around me. I had been led to focus on practical things, like strengthening my boundaries with others. I also paid attention to when I was making choices out of obligation or from a place of what was right for me. It felt like a conversation. I would listen, and then “speak” or make a choice. Then I would experience or “hear” the feedback. You may say this is how we “dance with life.”
I continued to consume information that I felt moved to read or listen. Again, this led me to some amazing discoveries. I will be sharing some of the newest resources with you on my NEW website.
The most amazing shift in all of this was my realization that I was still coming from a place of a victim in my life. I was seeing the choices I was making that were comfortable and familiar that kept me in that mindset. I still dance with this energy, however with my present awareness, I can call myself back and make a new choice. Mostly what I speak of is where am I placing my FOCUS? What conversations am I allowing to run through my mind? All of this is taking my bandwidth and it is creating my net energy vibration.
This awareness has returned to me my power. I am no longer a victim unless I continue to choose it (out of habit). I am WAY more powerful, and I can create AMAZING things!! Can you see how this NEW energy is completely different than the victim mentality? I can influence change in my life, and I can make it happen in whatever timeline I choose. This is POW in powerful!
My most recent interlude with an alternate reality was this past weekend. Besides having a victim mode, I also have wrestled with abundance, or the lack thereof. Anyone got money issues? My latest teacher blew my mind with suggestions of…well, magic. Besides creating money where and when you need it, you are essentially given the permission to create with joyful expectation anything that you could want or need. I felt this possibility on the inside, but I was held back by old judgments that I’m so naïve, irresponsible or not realistic. My new teacher gave me permission to use my imagination and expect magic! I can do that! Can you?
A little disclaimer here: nothing that which I speak of today is new to me, or possibly to you either. I’ve read, taken classes, seminars, watched movies, documentaries…you name it. I believe we are all learning at a different pace and we are learning on different levels within ourselves. When we receive information and resonate with it, that does not mean we will have a huge breakthrough in the external world. It just means we are on the right track for our own evolvement. I say all this to say that when we withhold judgement of ourselves and how we should be growing or what we should be experiencing, we give ourselves permission to be on our most authentic path, and the right one for us.
So, what were the tools I used to pull myself out of the hole?
I am still floating on the excitement of what I can create. Instead of saying, “I’m so happy and grateful,” I can’t help myself from saying, “I’m so excited and grateful…”
I’d love to hear from you! What are you creating? If you have questions about anything I mentioned here, please don’t hesitate to ask. Let’s start a conversation!